when the record ends

you know the sound

when the record ends

the slight buzzing

and click

that makes you wonder

if the end of life

will be the same

satisfying and smooth

although maybe

it’s a crashing wave

lifting us up

then pulling us down

until we repeat another wave

another life

or is it like

crashing a car

abrupt and unsettling

painful and severe

but over in an instant

i wish it were like falling asleep

a moment you never realize

but nevertheless takes you away 

from reality

i spend so much time wondering

that i wonder if

i’ve wasted life

passing through 

the precious moments

that become core memories

do we keep the memories?

when it ends

do they travel with us?

or are they erased?

as we begin a new life

i’ve heard it said 

that we get a replay

a movie

but would i want to watch it?

i’m not sure

because

i still wonder what it’s like

when the record ends